10/13/10

Its been a weird couple of weeks. there’s been so much going on. so much waiting…working..trying to get better. infection is pretty much gone. this experience has changed me.  I made a promise to myself that when all was said and done and I looked all better I was going to take over the world. I just mean the world that I’m living in. I feel like so many things got out of control and im done with it..I learned in one of my classes the other day that you choose and create your own social situations.. no matter what else is going on, at the end of the day, you’re the one in charge. If im not happy right now with the way things are going at school, it’s no one elses fault but mine. Things are not terrible there. They’re just different than how I expected them to be, and its just taking time to adjust. Even as I just typed that, I really disliked it. I don’t like the word adjust. It indicates that something is bad, and that you are coping with it, and I cant accept that. It’s not bad at school. It’s not. It’s just different. And sometimes it’s trying. Like when I’m trying to see you. But I haven’t been doing that recently. And so im going to fix everything. I may never be able to fix the world around me and the changes that time is making but I can change myself. I think a better word is adapt. I’m adapting..